Yeah, so the scales put me at back over 68kg again this morning, despite having had 2 days down around 67.7 and staying under maintenance and exercising. Fed up with this stuff. I keep thinking "I've been so good for ages" then I look back at my food diary and see all the days when I was almost up to maintenance and get so down about it. I want to be normal and not have to count and weight and not have to think about food all the time so I end up wanting food all the time, sometimes food that I can't let myself have because I will get fat again. I just can't do having a plate of chips for lunch and then not having anything else for the rest of the day to make up for it, I Get Hungry.
So tired of it all. And then I'm on holiday next week and will end up fatter when I get back as I'll be crap and eat and drink all week and not go out running or cycling 'cause it's so bloody hilly around there. Can't nature gimme a break please? Let me hang loose for a bit and not have to worry about getting fat again.